Seen Ways, Counted Steps

Haven't had the time to update this thing lately. I had my gallbladder taken out last Friday...I'm good. Everything is healing great and I'm up and moving around :).

I was moved to the Logistics department at work, and it's been a little bit of a challenge for me. I work with a bunch of guys for 8 hours everyday. They are jokesters...and it's a fun work environment, and laid back. But sometimes it's hard for me to stay patient with them and let my light shine. They are funny, but most of the time, I get stuck in awkward situations where I'm forced to decide whether or not I'm going to compromise on my beliefs. I don't want to seem haughty and holier-than-thou, but I also can't help the check in my spirit sometimes.

I keep thinking about Hadassah in the Mark of the Lion series...how sweet and generous she was. She was kind and patient and generous, and meek and humble and quiet...but she spoke when she needed to. But it was her actions that spoke to people, mainly. And I look at her life and how she affected people just by having faith and being like Jesus...not laughing at cruel jokes or poking fun, not being mean and selfish, and I look at my own life and wonder what happened to who I used to be. Alright, I know that Hadassah is a fictional character, but there ARE people like that out there. They are few and far between, but I have met a couple.

To know God is to not settle for compromise. To know Him is to become like Him...like Jesus. I miss being able to see the art in me...being able to comprehend that change is happening, that I'm becoming better. I want to be a light that shines brilliantly...I want these guys here to think of me as a good person, a girl of purity, and Christian, one who is faithful to her convictions and who is loving and generous...and I wonder how they think of me now. Not just them, but people in general. We're about to have to go to work, so I guess I'll finish this later.